Can you demotivate me?

A small story of a demotivated kid!! When I was small and immature, I had an experience. It was a time when I was doing 7th grade or something. Me, my dad and some others were in a discussion about some random subject and at some point, we were discussing about the area/diameter of a circle and an old man asked me something like this "Have you learned about circle in your school?". With all due respect, I said something like this "Of course not, but I know the formula of the area of a circle". He began to criticize me, as if it is my mistake that the area of a circle is not included in the syllabus of a 7th grade student! He 'demotivated' me with some harsh and provoking dialogues and at a point he asked me a question, "Are you getting angry at me?". I should have acted weird and survived with a smile. It is a fact that it had affected me a little, as I still remember that incident even after 10 years.  Today, I'm 'big' and mature(ahem!!) and I have a different policy (it can be wrongly interpreted as a survival policy). As far as you believe that 'you can't be nothing', no one can demotivate you for any reason.

Actually, is there something called 'motivation', 'demotivation', 'negative' or 'positive'? Everything comes under the category of 'facts'. I am a pathetic singer and I have no problem in admitting it (preferably by not singing. Why should I risk your comfort?). There are a lot of things in which I am not confident about, admitting them seems to be a good idea rather than giving others unrealistic expectations. Now-a-days, I can see things like this in our media. Let me take an old example( I should have used this example before. Pardon me for not being updated to media), when Indian cricket team was going to Australia for tournaments, the Australian team captain will probably come up with a fight with words through the media. The Indian captain responds, coach responds, or may be even the sweeper in an Indian cricket ground may respond which will eventually help some journalists to have their food. But, why would he(Indian captain) respond to such issues? Even if there were no record of an above average performance in Australia, the Indian captain would respond like "We will thrash Australia" and probably they would get thrashed by Australians, which will be food for the entire media for months! I know, I am a little pessimistic, but pessimists seem to be truthful. If you are confident of your abilities, be a pessimist. Indian captain should have shut his mouth and gave some surprises to Indian cricket fans when they get back. With no expectations, a small victory can make a lot of effects.

If we watch closely, you could see people who would demotivate you with your surroundings. There was a friend who used to make comments on almost everybody, who have a different native place than his place. The comments will be about your area or their behavior or their culture etc. "Oh! Are you from 'abc'? People of that native won't behave good in public". He deserved a lot of punches on his nose! Why can't you just ignore him? If it was me, I know that I always have a choice to be different from my surroundings and I always have the choice to behave good in public even if I am coming from a place where people who couldn't behave good in public. I definitely do not have the responsibility of my native place's behavioral habits. The point is, they are just playing with your confidence and if you fall for it, you have just lost one good opportunity. The confidence plays a major role in what you are. Sometimes, 'demotivators' are some people who are desperately trying to outsmart you with the knowledge or skill they have. You will have your unique knowledge and skills too.For every single human in this world, the skill and knowledge he do not have outsmart the skills and knowledge he have. So, there is no point in getting demotivated by those desperate people, no one can outsmart you in being you! 

NB: You can follow me if you are ready to fall on a rock on your pointed nose, just because you ignored a very valuable, logical and intelligent 'demotivation'!

Sincerely,

Raghu

Choice and compulsions

I'm a true believer that I have some control over my life. Not everything is unique in my life, but to an extend I do not follow or support some ideologies that a lot of people believe in. I'm not a guy who would like to peek into someone's life to do what I do (may be, not always). Some people address me as a self-disciplined, but I consider myself as a man of attitude. Sometimes, people would evaluate you with your face and will come to an assumption that you are disappointed and unhappy. They are not always right about my case as I believe that I am a person who is already living a life at its 'almost perfect satisfactory' level. In life, there are a lot of things which are to be done because of 'compulsions' and for some others, I always had a 'choice'. If I am capable enough to make a choice, I would always choose 'choice' in my life. 

I could be an open book in my life. I wouldn't do much things that couldn't be exposed in public and it is the major source of a factual thought that I'm literally doing 'nothing' in my life. I believe that I am not easily 'provokable' as I used to defend most of my friend's  unacceptable suggestions with a simple smile(things have changed a bit though). I believe that I haven't advised much people to be like me, except here in the blogosphere(I'm not pretty sure about it, but if it had happened that couldn't be my mistake. Why can't you notice an 'x' button on your browser?) . I can't understand why some people are still provoking me to give them false hope by wasting their time. I am ready to face the consequences of what I did in my life and normally, I wouldn't try to escape from those consequences.

If I am about to do something, I used to be cautious about some parameters. The first and the important thing is to ask myself whether I should do it or not (Nothing spontaneous, but there are some exceptional cases). I do not know how I regretted for an accidental insult on a very strange woman which was happened a long time ago and I still remember a lot of such incidents that may not be a notable incident in the memories or thoughts of the victims. I do not do everything I like to do in my life, but it will be appreciable if  people can stop blaming my 'fear' for not doing the thing I never intended to do. I'm not completely dependent on compulsions in my life. It is a fact that I haven't done everything I intended to do, but there are things that I've left undone and it is more likely because of my choice.

NB: I hope I haven't used the word 'you' in this post as this is all about 'me'. Anyway, if you have some suggestions feel free to comment. I'm always happy to 'simply smile'.:)

Sincerely

Raghu

Dear lonely fellows...

I talk a lot to some people. This might be a little surprising fact for some of my acquaintances who are supposed to be my friends. Sometimes, I just explode a head on completely unknown people without any intentions. A few months before, I met a guy in a train and he just started talking about his life and his experiences and all of a sudden, I began to talk and I am almost sure that he should have cursed the time when he decided to talk with me. I was thinking about a lot during that journey and I still got no idea of why I talked to that guy. But, it is more like an explosion of my thoughts that I never planned to express to anyone. I was alone and thoughtful and he was just a victim!! I always used to pretend like I never cared of being alone in my life. I used to have a mobile/laptop to make others believe that I'm involved in something, but is a fact that I'm not always entertained by a mobile or laptop in my life. I'm always thoughtful when I am alone and I'm never bored at any times of my life. It is kind of weird, I know!!!

A few months before, I happened to hear an astonishing fact about family relationship status of our country. In the past, there were joint families where a lot of members lived together as a family. When it became intolerable, people began to live nuclear families. Now-a-days, old age homes can be seen in every corner of the country. Some are paid and some others can accept the 'unacceptables'. Which is a clear evidence of tearing up of nuclear families. The only reason for the current count of married couple in this country is inadequate judicial facilities. If getting a divorce is easy, there will be a lot of people who would like to get a divorce. Sometimes, it is just a fact that every single human is alone in his own world. But, his thoughts and his world is really important in his life. Check out this video.

This video is a thought provoker in my life. In my future, it is possible that I would think of a movie like this and I believe that everybody is already imagining their life in a similar manner. The word "I" is not always greedy. Sometimes, it shows self-confidence and in some other times, it shows unacceptability of one's ideas in other's life. I'm a little heroic in my life though it may not inspire anyone other than me. 

Recently, I happened watch an interview of Sri. Kamal Haasan(In my view, calling him an 'actor' is an understatement to what he really is) in which he said something like this "At the age of 21, I thought I am a lonely genius and decided to kill myself". See? He was lonely too and quite recently I happened to read an essay of Albert Einstein in which he addressed himself as a 'lone traveller'. These two are quite inspiring examples for sure. I know, I am not the only one who is suffering from an irrelevant "No one cares me!" kind of thought and this could motivate people like me  for sure. Loneliness is just a fact and it is better if we could accept and stop thinking about it. 

No one can accept you better than yourself because no one knows you better than yourself.

Sincerely,

Raghu

The true inspirer!

I'm the most important part of my life for sure. I always have something to say when it comes to the most complex subject of my life :'me'. But, I am a victim of a lot of criticisms and analysis for which, I always had a response of an irregular smile( Just a reflex action to show that 'I am not entertained!'). Some people believe that  I am living a very miserable life of 'being pathetic and perfect'. At present, I am free to do a lot of things in my life. I am not independent, but I can decide a lot of things that my father wouldn't interfere. But, I wouldn't do all the things that I can do as I define my perimeters and boundaries of my life. I have always been questioned for the things I didn't do in my life, but none of those questions had provoked me to change what I really stand for. 

In many occasions, I was put aside for the choices I made in my life. I never regretted for any of those occasions and I am well trained to accept that it is just the way I am. I do not know how many times I've heard of a question 'Who are you afraid of? No one will tell anything to anyone' . I smiled at them, but that is not enough. I have an answer for that question. 'I am not afraid of anyone, but I have a person to whom I need to justify and it is myself. If you can keep hiding it from him, I would do whatever you want to do in my life'. I am the best teacher of my life and I enjoy doing everything my way even if it may not sound perfect to others. I was criticized by my mother when she noticed that I am not engaged in any art or creativity, I was criticized by some of my friends as I never had a good socializing capabilities, I was criticized for not showing some courage to  make 'a cheap comment' on a girl. I always had some ideologies in my life that are defined according to the needs of the situation. I do what I feel like I am doing. But, I really enjoy getting criticized for something. 

I have done a lot of things in my life by following other's path. But, I always knew that their paths were uncomfortable for me.I am pretty sure that many of those criticizers would understand the reason for being me, if they had an opportunity to have my brain and experiences of life. I do what I really wanted to do in my life and I really like to have a respectable, humble life. I may not have a good reason to look into your definitions as I have given enough thoughts on how my life should be. It is not difficult to convince me with your ideologies, but they are supposed have some reason other than 'This is what everybody does!'. Because, that is the most stupid reason I've ever heard in my life especially when it comes in ideologies and role-models of my life. It is just like 'I like Anna Hazare because the word 'Anna' sounds funny to me' which is quite irrelevant though. I see and analyze things and I do believe that the real and genuine part of life is not in howmany years I lived or the number of experiences or sufferings I happened to face, but  it is all about what you really find worthy of noting, which could change your life. You can always remain the same even if you live a life of 100 years. I choose not to be blind by shutting by eyes and it doesn't look like a mistake!!!

I value a lot of things in my life. Sometimes, those invaluable things of my life might look like a very simple thing in other's life. I always want to be unique in my life and whenever I face a criticism,which could never ring a bell in my mind, I am at an extreme point of self-respect in my life. No matter what other's believe, I really like being me and it is not going to change if I remain in my perimeter and boundaries. This is the true inspiration of my life. To be a respectable man, I am supposed to do something respectable!!!

Sincerely,

Raghu

The word "Internet" is not always a bad word!!

I'm a guy who used to sit a lot of time in-front of internet everyday. It almost made me think that I exist only in the internet. I behave different when I am in the internet. Some of my friends thought that I am chatting a lot and some others believed that I am learning a lot of things through internet. In reality, I was doing nothing, just sitting idle watching some TV series or movies. I think, many of us believe that our young generation is misguided by internet. But, I want to say one thing "'internet' is not always a bad word".

My life is severely influenced or affected by internet. There used to be a time when I used to blame myself for sitting infront of a computer for long hours. But, internet has changed a lot of things in my life for sure. I've been using blogger for the last 4 years and it is an achievement that I'm recognized or famous among people I do not know. It was always a good thing to know that there are people who like my thoughts and in a sense, I believe that I've improved a lot in my language just because of this blog. I've been thinking a lot about blogging though I write less. Internet was always an arena of knowledge and thought provoker in my life. Today, I use internet whenever I have some doubts about anything. To be frank, google made others believe that I am smarter than I look. If someone asks me a doubt in anything, all I used to do is to google it. I'm their big fan!!

Internet is a very vast thing and I feel quite natural to see the dark side of using internet.Misusing such a great opportunity is what I really meant. At some point, I believed that I've forgotten how to behave in the normal world just because of this internet addiction and I felt so sad about it. But, I believe that I've realized some facts about this addiction. This addiction happens when we make this internet more private and personal than it has to be. I like to meet new people, make friendship and share thoughts and internet is the best place to do it. I never got bored of using internet in my life. I always had something to do here and I consider it as a good thing. 

What makes internet bad? We are making this too personal in a virtual world. Meeting people in internet is simpler now. I have a lot of friends whom I do not know and I do not believe that I am going to have an opportunity to chat with them. I really do not want them to get disappointed if they like to see my status updates and shared items in their home page. My social networking profiles are full of acquaintances or strangers and I have no problem in their presence except for a huge number in the friends list. Nothing in this internet is true or honest. Why should I be honest here? No one should care what I do here, because there is no reason to. I can comfortably type ":(" by laughing too hard, I can think of a programming code to type "hmm" in my chat box on every 20 seconds and do something else so as to make the person at the other end believe that I really listen to what they are saying, I can use google translator to make others believe that I know a lot of languages. Anything can be faked including our intentions and interests. I will not be entertained if I happened to meet a person with my photo as his profile photo just because I am cuter than him. It is not so difficult to find a 'completely open' photo album of cute girls (preferably strangers) so that you can download them and make your own fake profile. These things must feel weird to all of us. I think, these things made some of us believe that we have nothing believable in this internet.

I do not know whether I take this thing personal or not, but I would like to see internet as a place where I can meet anonymous people and share my knowledge. Actually, I have a weird idea in my mind today. What if I could make a online place where you could never use your name or photo in your profile. Being anonymous seems to be a good idea for me. "I do not know you and you do not know me. So, let us be friends." looks like a great idea that can avoid addictions as well. What would you do if there were no facebook or orkut or internet itself?

Sincerely,

Raghu

The theory of 'habitual thinker'!

I think, there is a way of thinking for everyone in this world .I do not think that no one other than me has exactly the same thoughts. Each one of us may have different solution for a single problem. In my life, I am supposed to see a lot of things from my surroundings and I am supposed to grasp a lot from the surroundings. But, even if someone else has to move in the exactly same path as mine, I am pretty sure that he will be different from me. I used to be a day dreamer in my life and I am a partial daydreamer right now. But, have you ever thought of 'how to think?'. If you have, I am pretty sure that it will be different from my thoughts. Because, no one is completely have the same thought and attitude. Everybody is unique and different in their own ways. In my personal opinion, 'their own ways' in the previous sentence may not fit well for all of us. Sometimes, I just follow what others are doing without giving a second thought. I know that I am supposed to think before taking a decision but, I failed to figure out the way I should have thought about it. I was unable to dig deeper than what I thought about  and in some subjects, I still remain the same.

Actually, is there a common way to think about a subject? I do not think so! I see a lot of things from my life and a few of them will be captured into my brain. There are different levels in knowing things. In the first level, we just see the thing and at that level, everybody would be in the same condition. In the second level, we will do some analysis in our mind and it determines the applicable wisdom in our life. Let's take an example, Albert Einstein found his famous equation E=MC^2. . Some people thought of making it useful to meet the need of energy while some others' thought of making the 'atom bomb'. In reality, they both had the same information but they thought about two different usages of the same information. Actually, can I say that one of them is right and the other is wrong? Yes, I may. But, what's right clearly depends on which part I support. If I support the atom bomb, I will definitely say that the formula is meant to be used for making atom bombs. This is the most important part which made me convinced that "Everybody have the right to choose their 'rights' and 'wrongs'!" But, there is one more level in deep thoughts, what if I could consider both part of it in my mind? Definitely, I will be able to justify anything, even Osama!! But, I am a complete failure in that part. It can be because my justification and their justification are completely different.

I am a person who used to think a lot about me. An 'about me' page in my orkut profile was the first thing that motivated me to start a blog. But, I always used to think of what others should have thought about my acts and behaviors. Today, I cannot support it as 'I feel like I was an actor for my entire life'. The deepest thought is the thought you have when you pretend to be an outsider. In my experience, I have heard and seen a lot of fights and ragging cases between seniors and juniors of my college and some other colleges as well. Does it really make sense if I say that they were too idiotic? In an outsider's view, everything was idiotic (for some insiders also!). It is not an issue here, but the core part is the way I think and the way they think (I swear, I do not have an idea of what they were thinking, but at present I do not have a good reason to believe that they are not crazy). Everybody should have a justification for what they are doing and I am pretty sure that they would have some justification for what they did. The success of a meaningful thought is when you can think like an outsider (A thought from 'No man's land'!!). About myself, what I should have thought if I was someone else? Sometimes, it can make some sense, but it won't work all the time the same way you would expect. 

Wisdom is a result of such thoughts in our lives. I had a lot of spare time in my life and I used to believe that the word 'bore' is meaningless to me as I never got bored of these thoughts. But, I can definitely say that it helps to take my decision and it helps to increase the confidence to justify my stands and that was the only thing I cared about in my life. I cannot advice that we should develop this habit of thinking in every single thing in our lives. Sometimes, we may need to take a random pick because it is an undisputed fact that no information in our mind is complete and unexpected things will keep on happening. But, I am aware that too much thoughts will make others call you a 'pessimist' . Thinking is not a life and don't let your life sink in the ocean of thoughts.

Sincerely

Raghu

Let's destroy 'feminism'!

I've been hearing a lot about feminism these days. I've searched here to find the exact meaning for feminism. Our society is a society based on discriminations. We have caste system, wealth system, position systems etc. those which are efficiently evolved like a hierarchy and destroyed the true essence of life. Professional criticizers will be tired of criticising the above discriminations. Beyond these, there are some other discrimination techniques too. Humans and animals, Man and woman, NRI and RI(Resident Indians ;)), fan of Shahrukh khan and Amir khan (or may be vijay and ajith of tamil industry) etc are some of the major discriminations which are so fragile and may collide at any point of time.But, still this power to discriminate is considered to be the best quality of a human being. 

It sounds weird when I hear people quarrelling with the name of celebrities. I have witnessed some similar incidents that I've mentioned in this blog before. All such quarrels were meaningless and there is some sort of weirdness in the discrimination of man and woman. I wonder why there is a word 'feminism' in the dictionary. What is so special about woman? Why do some people believe that this is a 'male dominated world'? In the previous era, I understand that there were some troubles that kicked out females in some aspect and it should have paved way for the evolution of feminism. Its time to remove the word from the dictionary. Today's world is not based on muscle power alone it depends more on intelligence. Basically, every human thinks different in different situations. If someone else could live my life instead of me, I'm sure that he would be entirely different from what I am. As every human is supposed to have a brain, what possible difference does it make by the discrimination of man and woman? If you think that Indira Gandhi was the best prime minister of our country so far, its not because she is a woman, its more likely because she is a human. Still, if we could check the percentage of participation from woman's side, it is nearly pathetic. 

It sounds weird when I hear people quarrelling about woman and man domination as well. If you believe that a woman is not as good as man, its because they are under utilized.We expertise on things we practice. If someone believe that a woman can't rule a country, its because they have some lack in practice. If you believe that a woman can cook better and write recipe blogs well, its because men lacks practice in that field (But, I haven't seen much woman cooks in hotels in my life!I assure you that I'm a disastrous cook anyway). Somehow, its all about how a human life is lived or how the problems are faced. In my personal opinion, I have no problem to work under a woman in my future, if she deserve it. Its better to stop allowing the men to dominate. It is time to realize that human values should be given more priorities than the gender of any human. Maybe we could remove the word feminism from the dictionary someday(I have checked the wordweb 6.0 in my computer and the word was still there in the dictionary)

Sincerely,

Raghu

NB: I would like to recommend  a new word that can replace both "Mr." and "Ms.", because, I want to completely eliminate man-woman discrimination from the world.

A (not so innocent) view about 'flirting'!!

I've been receiving a little better response from people around the blogosphere for a post I've written before. It really inspires me as it is one of the main reason why I'm here today. The post ("An innocent view about flirting") is about flirting and you can read it from the link provided. Whenever I receive comments in that post, I used to think about the relevance of that post now. I personally object some specific things I've written there even though I've remarked about my ignorance in my topic. The status is still the same, I'm not a flirter and unfortunately, I'm still against flirting.

The reason for this post today and the post before are almost alike. Some of my friends are determined to make me fall in love and break my leg!! And I almost stood at a point at which forcing me to fall in love is an almost flirting. Just like before, I'm still noticing a lot of advertisements in facebook to find beautiful girls and they haven't received a single page view because of me and I consider it as an achievement.

The point is still the same!! Our behavior and habits have changed a lot because of our artificial life. What will happen if there were no internet? I'm supposed to survive so why should I care about advertisements? I have heard of a story of a man who created an orkut account just for flirting and later he deleted the same account as he got married. Internet is not always a place to flirt but, online games and flirting sites have changed the face of internet to a certain extend! Choosing a life partner is not as simple as we choose a shirt from the textile shop. It is easy but, it is not the way it should be! Smart boys can get smart girls! But in my view, smartness is just like pretending something. Its an act for temporary impression. I do not believe that girls are going to be a fan of me if I had a nice bike and expensive deodorant. These kinds of things are just exploiting our weaknesses. We are already aware of it.

I remember an advice from one of my friends to write 'love stories' instead of these weird blog posts for creating an impression. There are people who believe that everything they do is just for impressions. But, I can't accept it. I remember a status update of my friend which says that we should try to be ourselves by avoiding impressions. It impressed me a lot as he got a point. I'm not what I'm when I try to impress anything. I can't really maintain the level of my impression throughout my life. This thing seems to be insane to me. I do not like to behave like any celebrity to attract attention, I do not like to wear any freaky clothes just to attract attention. What I do in my life is just my standard and my life is not perfect or imperfect as it may seem.

A few years back, I and one of my friends were having a debate about the same subject and I remember the words I just said about this. "It is better to find someone who loves our weaknesses than to find someone who loves our show-offs". Today, it makes a lot of sense for me as it is perfectly true in many senses.I have a certain nature and my thoughts have a certain nature and I'm not ready to change myself just because I am supposed to make an impression. The real impression which can always remain in my life is when I can comfortably say that 'I am just what I am' and such a statement can automatically impress a lot of people. The real love is when I can find someone who loves my imperfections.

I wish everyone to be able to find your perfect life-partner, but I am well aware that luck has nothing to do about it. So, save your leg!!

NB: nothing specific but, I'm forced to put down something!

NB1: Some of my close friends might be able to figure out the reason for using 'not so innocent' in brackets. If they can't, I didn't mean anything!!

Raghu

My definition for the word 'achievement'!

I think, the real reason for the existence of advisers is a fact that everybody believes that they are right. As far as I know, the most difficult fact to accept in this world is the fact that "I'm not always right". But, there is room for a counter-attack. To be completely personal, I hate advising!! I don't like to advice as well. Everything is just facts and no one can completely categorize 'right' and 'wrong' as it depends on the people who analyze them. I've seen people who used to advice me to try for a job in bank and definitely, they work in banks. As far as they see and convince, a job in a bank is the most safest job of the world. There are risks but, they feel so honored to be part of those banks. And I decided to try but, the real intention was different. I would like to be a bank officer and I believed that it could help me to follow my desire as a part-time job.

What is an achievement? Earning money? Living life? Enjoying life? I do not live to enjoy my life...I do not live my life to survive just as everyone else who assumes the way I am! My definition of achievement seems to be different. In my view, the most ugliest invention of our human history is 'money'! It killed people, analyzed people and even demotivated many others. If I were rich, I could do almost everything even if it is irrelevant and useless. I can buy people with money, sell myself for money or even bury myself in money. But, being any of these will never reach to my definition of 'achievement'. I consider money as my last preference for achievement. The only good thing which a rich man can do is to exploit the man who likes money. I received an sms from my friend :" A funny fact : Poor man runs for his daily food while a rich man runs to digest his daily food". What does it mean? In life, running is inevitable and the only difference is their appearance during the run. A rich may have a track suit but, the poor may not have it. Both runs for life. Trouble is inevitable as it arises one after another just because we could never have a complete definition for 'satisfaction'. I really hate people who analyze achievement with money. Money is essential but, it is not the only requirement of my life and a world without money can be fairer than what I see today! I love money just because its been established centuries before I am born and most of the people claim that they own most of the things in this world by this 'money'. The application of 'Darwin's Theory'(Existence of the fittest) on money is always unfair. I can assure one thing, I will never cheat anyone for money, I will never abuse anyone just because they don't have money and I will never respect anyone just because they got money (I do respect Warren Buffet for his philanthropic attitude )! Then, why should I work for money? I work for money because I need some support from people around me for my own survival.

People used to self-praise themselves by many means to show how rich they are. "I earn 2,00,000 per month" or " I got a lot of Lamborghinis in my house" etc are some examples. I used to do the same before but, it was almost 15 years before (I'm 18 years old since 2007). I told some of my friends in play school that I have an elephant, a gorilla and a tiger at my home (late confessions!). I didn't have anything at my home except a dog! Then, why did I say it? Because, I want to create an impression among my friends about it. Even today, I can see the same tendency in many people including me. I felt jealous of people who says that they have a shirt of 5,000 Rs(even if it worth just 500) or they own a bike of 1,00,000. My father is using a pretty decent bike than I had and I survived some criticisms from my friends in my college. I'm honestly trying to avoid it. I got a philosophy which I always used to apply in many real-life situations. "I'm supposed to survive even if these were not invented!". I'm supposed to survive even if my father was poor. So, if I call these an achievement, I'm ready to try buying lottery tickets as a profession! I'm not going to die even if someone offers me a billion rupees for dying.

So, what exactly is an achievement? There is no correct definition for achievement as it depends on the people. Even the word 'achievement' does exist just because the others' mentality to analyze me. I don't mind what they think about me. May be, I would struggle hard in my life just because of this mentality but, I won't regret for what I do (Things which we call stupid may not stay stupid for eternity). The only difference which I am trying to make is to differentiate what I do with what I'm supposed to do. I'm ambitious, definitely ambitious. I dreamed of being a lot of things in my life. Everything changed by the course of time. In my childhood, I dreamed of being a bus driver (I used to watch closely how the driver drives a bus and this is not a joke), a cricket player, a singer, an engineer, a businessman, a writer, a philosopher and even the president of India. Now, some of these ambitions are a laughing stock for me (Especially, the engineer's part). I'm pretty sure that I'm going to get a little different profession from any of the above ambitions but, I always loved to do something easier for me. People used to call me 'lazy' sometimes but, I know that I'm not always lazy. I'm lazy when I do not like what I'm doing. I still do not know why I'm sitting here in front of my computer in this late night and typing all these but, am I really lazy? I really like to do something like this and I wish if I could use this determined mind in my profession. I can feel the definition of 'achievement' in it.

I watched a movie recently. Its name is "A beautiful mind". It is a master-piece of one of my favorite actors Russel Crowe. It was a life of an almost psychic nerd who is trying to find a 'completely new idea'. Even I dreamed of doing something like that and I honestly believe that I can achieve it if I could make my passion my profession.  As far as I know, I'm a small philosopher and I may not be able to start a shop by putting a board "Philosophies for sale". But, it may offer 'satisfaction' and 'happiness' for me. Rather than being a really bad engineer, I may enjoy being a meaningless philosopher. It may not make me rich, it may not help me to gain enough money to live but, there are things which I need beyond it. Whatever happens in the end, I call it 'my achievement' and no one else has got anything to do about it.

"I define my achievements and I do not have anything to do to make it look like your achievement as 'every achievement' is unique and different. Sometimes, even a mind which do not have an idea of a definite achievement seems to be an achievement."



Sincerely,

Raghu

***To be continued as I got too much to process and define..

I'm my greatest fan!

I'm inspired by a scene in the movie "Bluffmaster"!! Actually, I didn't watch the entire movie but, I saw a scene where a man doing his own 'aarathi' in front of a mirror! According to him, the world's most respectable person is himself! Many people used to consider it as self-praising but, I got some justification and I'm trying to express here.

Recently, I watched a programme where two teams of Argentina fans and Brazil fans were having a quarrel(an almost fight) about the world cup football! Both of them claims that the world cup will be theirs!! This time, I am a fan of Korean team and the same day I claimed that I am their fan, they lost their game with Portugal(7-0) and yesterday, they are out of the world cup!! Why did it happen?? It happened because, I got nothing to do to make them play well. I'm not in their team selection, I'm not their coach and I'm definitely not their player and I got nothing to do about it. It was just a wish! May be, any team other than Argentina or Brazil can also win the world cup! It can happen I got experiences! In the last world cup, every single team lost their games when I started supporting them (I supported Germany in the final)!! I believe that they are coincidences as I got nothing to do to make them play well. What is the point?? Showing our support can be accepted but, I can't really support this weird quarrels. I cannot find much room for it as everybody is ignoring themselves.

I believe that the true energy of me comes from myself. The true inspiration of my life is when I believe in my own powers. Looks like everybody is supposed to be their own fans! I remember a boy, who used to play cricket with me during my childhood days. The interesting thing about that boy is that he always used to do his own commentary for his game.For some eg:- "Well batting Stanley", "well bowling Stanley, "What a great catch Stanley!!". I still remember his disappointed funny face when he lost a game with small children like me(According to us, he was an aged man)! He is self-praising but, its the most effective motivation!

I didn't really mean to say that everybody must stop appreciating others. My justification for me being my greatest fan is a fact "I know exactly what I'm doing". The person who know my capabilities is me. I'm the only one who can control or outburst what I do and I'm unique as every single human in this world. No one can just be nothing! No one can just be an exact copy of someone else. I'm motivated by many things in others' life but, I will never try to be like them as I perfectly know that I can just be me! My suggestion: You can show your 'honest appreciation' to the one who deserves it but, never mix it with 'honest jealousy' and forget the real part of yourself!

Sincerely,

Raghu