Why should I lead a disciplined life?

I think, discipline involves some sort of sacrifices to everyone. From my early ages itself, I've been hearing a lot about discipline and still it continues. When I was doing my primary school, my school principal punished me by a pinch on my ear for using crackers( I do not know the exact word for it. I think, I can call it 'baby crackers' as it was so small) at school. I never stopped using crackers afterward and that punishment was a pure wastage of time. The disciplinary actions I've ever heard in my life were purely compulsions! I was afraid to use crackers again at my school, but I always had the tendency to use it until I leave the school. I've noticed a lot of people who are extremely attracted to well disciplined schools for their children. I still do not know how these disciplines are measured but, it doesn't make much sense to me. 

Disciplines and disciplinary actions are mostly for building up of mannerism! I believe in one thing, these compulsions are not going to help me gain anything in my life. I never followed all the disciplinary actions I've learned at school. I've always found some tendency to get indisciplined when I was at school.But, some of them remained in me. So, what should I do? I have to destroy this tendency to get indisciplined. My grandfather was also like this, he always used to wake me up at 6 O'clock in the morning which I hated more than hell. Yesterday, I slept at 1O'clock and woke up at 8! But, one day I'm going to realize that waking up at 6 is making much better sense than sleepless late nights!! That is wisdom!!

Who are these discipline makers? Mostly, they are highly matured and experienced people who got some idea of the value of disciplined life! And I do respect them. But, no one can ever compel me to follow their rules and make me look like a disciplined man as I'm already disciplined in my own way! You can convince me to be like you by your wisdom but, never force to implement your level of discipline to my life. It can have a very negative after-effect!! If some disciplines are not making much sense in any part of my life, I am not going to accept it. Discipline should have some intention or aims. If it is good or fair, I might be able to accept if not, I will get back to what I was.

A few years before, my parents used to complain a lot about my addiction to internet, but I do not regret for this addiction. That is the way I am today. I'm not allowed to use mobile, laptop etc at my college. Does it make much sense? Mobiles or laptops are not always bad words. They can be misused but, they are not built for misusing. A security camera is used in a place where the security is under trouble and if there were no trouble, the invention of security cameras will be a waste of time and energy. So, my point is simple. If a rule for making us disciplined is not capable of destroying the 'tendency to get indisciplined', that action is purely non-sense! I lead a disciplined life because I'm not going to gain anything by an indisciplined life either!

"Life is great if you live the way you want to be, but it will be greater if you let others live the way they are!So, avoid unnecessary interferences..."


Sincerely,

Raghu

A (not so innocent) view about 'flirting'!!

I've been receiving a little better response from people around the blogosphere for a post I've written before. It really inspires me as it is one of the main reason why I'm here today. The post ("An innocent view about flirting") is about flirting and you can read it from the link provided. Whenever I receive comments in that post, I used to think about the relevance of that post now. I personally object some specific things I've written there even though I've remarked about my ignorance in my topic. The status is still the same, I'm not a flirter and unfortunately, I'm still against flirting.

The reason for this post today and the post before are almost alike. Some of my friends are determined to make me fall in love and break my leg!! And I almost stood at a point at which forcing me to fall in love is an almost flirting. Just like before, I'm still noticing a lot of advertisements in facebook to find beautiful girls and they haven't received a single page view because of me and I consider it as an achievement.

The point is still the same!! Our behavior and habits have changed a lot because of our artificial life. What will happen if there were no internet? I'm supposed to survive so why should I care about advertisements? I have heard of a story of a man who created an orkut account just for flirting and later he deleted the same account as he got married. Internet is not always a place to flirt but, online games and flirting sites have changed the face of internet to a certain extend! Choosing a life partner is not as simple as we choose a shirt from the textile shop. It is easy but, it is not the way it should be! Smart boys can get smart girls! But in my view, smartness is just like pretending something. Its an act for temporary impression. I do not believe that girls are going to be a fan of me if I had a nice bike and expensive deodorant. These kinds of things are just exploiting our weaknesses. We are already aware of it.

I remember an advice from one of my friends to write 'love stories' instead of these weird blog posts for creating an impression. There are people who believe that everything they do is just for impressions. But, I can't accept it. I remember a status update of my friend which says that we should try to be ourselves by avoiding impressions. It impressed me a lot as he got a point. I'm not what I'm when I try to impress anything. I can't really maintain the level of my impression throughout my life. This thing seems to be insane to me. I do not like to behave like any celebrity to attract attention, I do not like to wear any freaky clothes just to attract attention. What I do in my life is just my standard and my life is not perfect or imperfect as it may seem.

A few years back, I and one of my friends were having a debate about the same subject and I remember the words I just said about this. "It is better to find someone who loves our weaknesses than to find someone who loves our show-offs". Today, it makes a lot of sense for me as it is perfectly true in many senses.I have a certain nature and my thoughts have a certain nature and I'm not ready to change myself just because I am supposed to make an impression. The real impression which can always remain in my life is when I can comfortably say that 'I am just what I am' and such a statement can automatically impress a lot of people. The real love is when I can find someone who loves my imperfections.

I wish everyone to be able to find your perfect life-partner, but I am well aware that luck has nothing to do about it. So, save your leg!!

NB: nothing specific but, I'm forced to put down something!

NB1: Some of my close friends might be able to figure out the reason for using 'not so innocent' in brackets. If they can't, I didn't mean anything!!

Raghu

A mission to save the earth!!

There is a usual sequence in many hollywood movies. World will face a huge destruction (probably because of ourselves) and a hero rise from nowhere to save the world with his bare hands and intelligence! I watched the movie 2012 when it was on focus for a while but, the essence of that movie was also the same. I wonder, every single man in this world is expecting the end of the world some day. Not just the movies, our religions are also expecting the same! I'm expecting the same someday!! Yes, the world is going to end one day!! I've found a reason too. 'Our intelligence'!!!

I remember one fact which I have heard in my childhood "If we are creating a movie of 60 minutes with all the most important things happened on earth, humans own the last 3-4 seconds". If we compare the age of earth with that of the age of human existence, we lived only a very few years on earth(so far). Let's take the example of that movie, in 3-4 seconds, we made many animals disappear, we made most of our rain forests disappear, we built many buildings and increased the nature's average temperature, we drilled the earth and the list of achievements goes on. We almost changed the face of earth in comparatively very short time (milliseconds in comparison to earth's life). Please don't get bored of hearing the same news from the world around. I know, all of us are aware of what I'm talking and I need not waste my time in explaining this section.

What is our mistake? Mistake is not ours, it's our creator who almost made us responsible for the life of about 5 million species( it is estimated that the total number of animals in our planet comes to around 5 to 30 millions. Lets assume that it is about 5 million). Risking the life of about 5 million species just for the domination of 1 species seems to be insane. We got civilized and we built our own world by destroying the most beautiful 'beauty of randomness', the nature. We are considered as the brainiest animals on earth and we did all these insane activities. No one can skip from the responsibility of protecting the nature. I remember a dialog in the movie "The matrix" which explains that humans are not considered as mammals and that too by a program programmed by machines. We do not maintain a good ecological balance with the environment. We are getting outnumbered and we are exploiting as deep as we could. All that we are capable of doing is to dig our own (future generation's) grave by what the intelligent people call 'development'! What am I doing now? I'm sitting on a plastic chair (which won't destroy even after 1000 years) with a laptop(most of the components are going to be called as electronic waste in the near future) on a wooden table, that is made by destruction of forest wood!I'm also responsible for what I'm doing ! What shall I do? I'm also a member of 'intelligently insane creature's group' of the earth!!

I've seen people who advice everyone to reduce using fossil fuels. In my view, it is already time to 'stop' than 'reduce'. It is heard that fossil fuels are created by a lengthy processes of millions of years by our earth and certainly, no man had lived a million year on earth. We can't refuel it and our future generations are going to suffer for it. But, quite recently, I saw a comment in a facebook group which says that our oceans are going to get fished-off in 2048. I showed the comment to one of my friends and he replied like this " Why should I bother? I will get too old by 2048 and by that time our scientists will invent tablets instead of food". I do not believe that the existence of the entire world is for human domination and I do not have much trust in scientists as they can always invent some worse inventions! Today's meaning for 'life' almost resembles 'process of enjoyment' and our generations will follow us which makes things worse. We are well aware of what we are doing but, who is responsible? Who really care what we did? Who really enjoy what we did? Just ourselves!!

  

This topic has been inspiring me a lot for a long long time as I found a very simple solution for all the problems that can ever happen on earth. Get uncivilized(there is no spelling mistakes in this expression)!! Get back to the life of 'cave man' and try to maintain sense of the nature by making our acts sensible! I got really inspired when I watched the movie "In to the wild" in which a man who tried to lead a life in a jungle and ended up in the jungle itself because of accidental consumption of forest plant. It was a sad ending but, the nature has to maintain its balance. What we have invented or achieved or exploited will become meaningless if we can't even maintain the place where we are living. And just as the hollywood movies, there will be a hero to save and it need not always be just a hero it could be achieved by the combined effort of 6 billion heroes also!! 

NB: I do not have an idea of what I've written but, this topic is always relevant!!

Sincerely,

Raghu

My definition for the word 'achievement'!

I think, the real reason for the existence of advisers is a fact that everybody believes that they are right. As far as I know, the most difficult fact to accept in this world is the fact that "I'm not always right". But, there is room for a counter-attack. To be completely personal, I hate advising!! I don't like to advice as well. Everything is just facts and no one can completely categorize 'right' and 'wrong' as it depends on the people who analyze them. I've seen people who used to advice me to try for a job in bank and definitely, they work in banks. As far as they see and convince, a job in a bank is the most safest job of the world. There are risks but, they feel so honored to be part of those banks. And I decided to try but, the real intention was different. I would like to be a bank officer and I believed that it could help me to follow my desire as a part-time job.

What is an achievement? Earning money? Living life? Enjoying life? I do not live to enjoy my life...I do not live my life to survive just as everyone else who assumes the way I am! My definition of achievement seems to be different. In my view, the most ugliest invention of our human history is 'money'! It killed people, analyzed people and even demotivated many others. If I were rich, I could do almost everything even if it is irrelevant and useless. I can buy people with money, sell myself for money or even bury myself in money. But, being any of these will never reach to my definition of 'achievement'. I consider money as my last preference for achievement. The only good thing which a rich man can do is to exploit the man who likes money. I received an sms from my friend :" A funny fact : Poor man runs for his daily food while a rich man runs to digest his daily food". What does it mean? In life, running is inevitable and the only difference is their appearance during the run. A rich may have a track suit but, the poor may not have it. Both runs for life. Trouble is inevitable as it arises one after another just because we could never have a complete definition for 'satisfaction'. I really hate people who analyze achievement with money. Money is essential but, it is not the only requirement of my life and a world without money can be fairer than what I see today! I love money just because its been established centuries before I am born and most of the people claim that they own most of the things in this world by this 'money'. The application of 'Darwin's Theory'(Existence of the fittest) on money is always unfair. I can assure one thing, I will never cheat anyone for money, I will never abuse anyone just because they don't have money and I will never respect anyone just because they got money (I do respect Warren Buffet for his philanthropic attitude )! Then, why should I work for money? I work for money because I need some support from people around me for my own survival.

People used to self-praise themselves by many means to show how rich they are. "I earn 2,00,000 per month" or " I got a lot of Lamborghinis in my house" etc are some examples. I used to do the same before but, it was almost 15 years before (I'm 18 years old since 2007). I told some of my friends in play school that I have an elephant, a gorilla and a tiger at my home (late confessions!). I didn't have anything at my home except a dog! Then, why did I say it? Because, I want to create an impression among my friends about it. Even today, I can see the same tendency in many people including me. I felt jealous of people who says that they have a shirt of 5,000 Rs(even if it worth just 500) or they own a bike of 1,00,000. My father is using a pretty decent bike than I had and I survived some criticisms from my friends in my college. I'm honestly trying to avoid it. I got a philosophy which I always used to apply in many real-life situations. "I'm supposed to survive even if these were not invented!". I'm supposed to survive even if my father was poor. So, if I call these an achievement, I'm ready to try buying lottery tickets as a profession! I'm not going to die even if someone offers me a billion rupees for dying.

So, what exactly is an achievement? There is no correct definition for achievement as it depends on the people. Even the word 'achievement' does exist just because the others' mentality to analyze me. I don't mind what they think about me. May be, I would struggle hard in my life just because of this mentality but, I won't regret for what I do (Things which we call stupid may not stay stupid for eternity). The only difference which I am trying to make is to differentiate what I do with what I'm supposed to do. I'm ambitious, definitely ambitious. I dreamed of being a lot of things in my life. Everything changed by the course of time. In my childhood, I dreamed of being a bus driver (I used to watch closely how the driver drives a bus and this is not a joke), a cricket player, a singer, an engineer, a businessman, a writer, a philosopher and even the president of India. Now, some of these ambitions are a laughing stock for me (Especially, the engineer's part). I'm pretty sure that I'm going to get a little different profession from any of the above ambitions but, I always loved to do something easier for me. People used to call me 'lazy' sometimes but, I know that I'm not always lazy. I'm lazy when I do not like what I'm doing. I still do not know why I'm sitting here in front of my computer in this late night and typing all these but, am I really lazy? I really like to do something like this and I wish if I could use this determined mind in my profession. I can feel the definition of 'achievement' in it.

I watched a movie recently. Its name is "A beautiful mind". It is a master-piece of one of my favorite actors Russel Crowe. It was a life of an almost psychic nerd who is trying to find a 'completely new idea'. Even I dreamed of doing something like that and I honestly believe that I can achieve it if I could make my passion my profession.  As far as I know, I'm a small philosopher and I may not be able to start a shop by putting a board "Philosophies for sale". But, it may offer 'satisfaction' and 'happiness' for me. Rather than being a really bad engineer, I may enjoy being a meaningless philosopher. It may not make me rich, it may not help me to gain enough money to live but, there are things which I need beyond it. Whatever happens in the end, I call it 'my achievement' and no one else has got anything to do about it.

"I define my achievements and I do not have anything to do to make it look like your achievement as 'every achievement' is unique and different. Sometimes, even a mind which do not have an idea of a definite achievement seems to be an achievement."



Sincerely,

Raghu

***To be continued as I got too much to process and define..

When astrology defines your destiny...

Everybody is curious to know about the future! Social networking sites are fed up with applications for astrology and there are sites which can predict your time and day of your death! I do not know what they really mean by these sites. There are better businesses to be taken care about! I personally, hate astrology and that doesn’t mean that astrology is wrong. A year ago, I was really surprised by the three facts (damn true facts) of my life which is revealed by astrology (that too in a printed material). That single incident changed the way I look into astrologers! Really, they are dangerous! It made me feel that I’m not in control of myself and what is my role if the purpose of my life is pre-determined? What if they can dig out the hidden secrets in me? That is really dangerous because everybody is different from what they show in their life (A mask of what I am)!

I remember a real-life joke about the same subject. I and two of my close friends were roaming around in the town. We saw an astrologer with a parrot sitting in the footpath. One of my friends is an activist of the communist party and with a curious naughty intention; he went to the astrologer to know his future. Even he recorded what the astrologer was saying about him! I think, he never believed in any of the facts he heard but, he got so excited when he heard that he will get married at the age of 21 or 23! I think, that astrologer is just like an advertisement! That astrologer and advertisements are gripping on the most sentimental things in our lives! At last, the astrologer turned to me and asked “May I tell your future?” and I replied “No. I may get scared of my future.” I still do not know what made me say that but, it makes a lot of sense here! I know exactly what that astrologer was doing out there! He talks all the possible things which may happen in our lives and some of them may come true.

It feels like every human in this world is curious about their future. I do not know how many fictional stories are there in this world about the future of the world. The weirdest thing is that most of them are representations of world destruction! I think, world destruction is some sort of nightmare for the entire human beings and most of them are the result of our own inventions or the result of our activities! So ultimately, we believe that we are supposed to receive what we deserve by our activities! What is the point in believing astrologers if I stop doing what I’m supposed to do? I can think about suicide even if our astrologer predicts that I will survive 84 years on earth!

I’ve seen people who have left their life to fate. Whatever happens in their life is justified by the name of fate! I do not like that idea even if it is a truth. If I can’t change anything in my life, why should I have a brain? Robots can do better! I can dream of being the president of India and the others have the same right to dream the same! Unfortunately, the seat available is just one! No one should stop dreaming but remember that our president may also have the same zodiac sign as mine and the astrology report can also be the same!! In my view, life is just a hope that we will receive what we deserve and definition of the word ‘deserve’ depends on the people around you!

At the same time, there is a positive fact about astrology! When I’m disappointed or at chaos, an astrologer can easily motivate me by saying “Never mind, one day you are going to be the president of India”. Sometimes, it can be a bridge from death to life! Why should I care about whether it is right or wrong if it can do something good? How can I categorize such things? I don’t know but, I still believe in one thing “Astrologers cannot change my fate as I got a brain to define my destiny!”



Sincerely,

Raghu