September 8, 2011

Public Performances

This is not the first time I'm choosing a title like this in this blog. To be frank, this was the first topic that I've ever written in a blogging platform in my life. I deleted that post as I couldn't tolerate the standard of what I was doing at that time. I've been thinking about rewriting it as I can do better than what I did last time. But, I'm beginning to realize that I am good at something. I'm good at imagining and advising. My imaginations are a million times better than me. I am not claiming that I'm good at this subject, but it doesn't mean that I do not have any idea about the subject. Four or five years back, I happened to attend a personality development class and my previous attempt was to magnify the exact thing I saw there and write them in this blog. I couldn't say that it was a success, but it may turn out to be a turning point in my life.

Last time, I was a bit confident about what I was going to say. Today, I do not support the facts that I've written in my past. I've been changing a lot and whenever I see that post, I see an 'immature me' in it. None of these are relevant here and I am trying to be honest. I think, I deserve to be famous for my nervousness of my life. I'm not here with a success story of anything, but some attempts which could have been a worth noticeable ones. My philosophy is simple, if you really want to learn or achieve something, you need to know what the losers have to say about what they have tried. I'm entitled with a bit of bitter experiences with public performances. But, it has given me some thought on how it could be corrected. I'm not the one who is writing this post. For a moment, consider me as a different person or I'm just thinking of what I should have thought if I were a successful performer in public. 

I'm a criticizer in my nature even though I never used to criticize in public, I used have my own personal debates. Everybody is confident when they know what they are doing. So, knowledge is more important than confidence. I would never go for a lecture about "Indian classical dance" as I do not know anything about it and most importantly, we need to know our audience well. I think, unknown audience is the main cause of sleep in class hours. If I am not able to attract attention of my audience, it is my mistake and unless you are sure that there are no 'rotten eggs' in nearby shops and all the footwears in the audience's legs are of highly expensive type, it is better not to give any chance to luck because rotten eggs and foot wears can hurt you and your confidence. But, I was provided with a lot of opportunities in which there is no probability of receiving an egg or chappal on my head and I still didn't do anything. So, it is very simple to avoid such a problem, you have to stop being me. 

By the way I write this post, you should have realized that English is not my mother tongue. But, do you know how many times, I have recited the exact dialogues of some Client Eastwood movies (from Kung Fu Panda & dark knight too) in my bathroom? I'm not perfect, but I believe that it can work out some day.  I believe that I can handle some sort of 'understandable english' by now. Sometimes, we might need to communicate well in a different language and it is definitely a challenge. I'm better when I write rather than I talk in English. I can take all my time to frame or reframe the sentences. Talking is really fast and I might not be able to catch up with my thoughts. A lot of translation process is going on behind everything I write here and I already know that it is not the way it should be done. I have to think in English to make sure that I can talk in English. I believe that I've achieved something by trying it out. I can't really translate what I write here into my mother tongue in a fair manner. I would be very happy if you say that I really lost both language skills!!!

In my previous post, I have written something about the posture and actions you must maintain when you talk in front of some people. That is completely wrong. I feel that those rules or shortcuts to success are implemented by someone who really learn how 'successful public performers' are performing it. There is a good possibility that you will turn out to be a mimicry artist rather than being a true performer. I do stupid stuffs when I am nervous and many of the personality developers might tell you to avoid being nervous by acting like you are not nervous. Stuffs like 'don't play with your fingers', body language, actions etc can be considered as symptoms of nervousness. But, if you kill your nervousness itself, do you really need to act? Things may not work out your way, but you can always be a bit more serious than what you really are or you can always pretend like you are a better comedian than what you really are or pretend like you are a master in some subject or any method which can prove that you are not really what you show to this world. Sometimes, you may really need to change your attitude or body language to be a good performer. The world listens to the show-offs, not how that show is planned or executed. I mean, we are living at a point at which the entire credit of a successful film is taken or given to the hero of the movie, though the credits can be given to the creator or writer of that movie too. I may or may not change my attitude or body language to be something in my life that you need not bother, but I would recommend you to do it if it really makes you comfortable or unique. 

Sorry for wasting your time. You are on your own now. Best of Luck.